2008

It's been months and months since posting, and I realize that there has been very little poetry
too.........time to refresh, restart, reinvigorate, regroup and give again......really the giving is all for me as selfish as I am.........

Here's to the wonderful and mystery of 2008

It's the year of Illusion of Depth and this new album!!

me to me
hello

Dads

My dad
placed me on his shoulders
when I was just perhaps
age 6 or 8

already a certain
distrust
a certain
distain for his authority
although I really did
want to respect him

I decided at this vulnerable age
it was time to
give him my inner essence
a certain liquid that
generally was not
a gift
but

Here I am age
40ish or whatever
and I feel an empathy
an understanding
an okness
that certainly is new

I'm willing to greet Daddy
at a whole new level
one of equality
cause that's what we are
no fear
no anger
no hurt
no pain
no sense of absence

and if there is absence
I can accept this
because my own
beautiful two
babies are
here

I just hope
I've never
scared them

I don't think so
somehow
because I've always been
aware of
my past

and their future

and their Daddy
has never
hurt
nor abandoned
nor close circuited
nor attempted
to wound

maybe at times
his own messed upness
but he always came
back to them triple
fold
and he always will

thank you
lovely Daddy to
our children

in love and peace

Fathers Day
June 2007

Eventual Horizon

Eventually the horizon
was covered in mist
when linear meets horizontal
and mystery becomes known
and the unknown continues
to mystify me
pace by pace
the search has slowed

He looked at me
and referred with ambiguity
to my own once
expressed thoughts
I am forced to guess

Eventually the mist cleared
I spoke of love
once long ago
It must have had an impact
on him
one of concern
but not of warmth
not of connection

This word made the scissors
come out of the drawer
and he cut
me away
and I'm gone....................

Remember love is
a gift old
friend

November 1, 2003

I ask myself have I ever spoken of love in vain...............?

time

time for brian

time for dad

time for friends

time for bonds

time for eternity

time for love

time for angels

that greet us before

and at the end

of time


For my dear friend Brian, who has travelled on the backs of more Angels than
i will ever know...............

be at peace
my wonderful friend

in memory of your Father

The God Particles

The God particle
swept through
the dark matter
that has held my own
inner outer spacial
neutrino's
which can bind me
black holed

Waiting for the
accelerate
to blast and capture
my own translucent
god particles

To speak to you
to speak to me
To speak
at last
here we are


May 1, 2007

the men times

So

dear men

in my life

loved you all

still love a few

confused by some

admire one or two

who am i

to need anymore


than what

you are able

at the moment

to concede

............just make sure

i don't give too much


it's all with me............

InHer Dreams

In my dreams
I saw him
I felt his breath on me
I tried to touch
I tried so much
He turned his gaze away

Lalalalalalalalalalala

Then one day
I see him
I want his breath
on me
I want to touch
I want so much
He keeps his gaze away

Then one night
I knew him
I felt his breath on me
Then we touched
We touched so much
He turned his gaze away

Ohohohohohohohoho

To my breast
I brought him
I brought him
close to me
I let him touch
I let too much
I turn my
gaze away

In my dreams
I see him
I see him far away
I blow a kiss
I send my love
My dream now
fades this day

wowowowowowowowow

a song for the upcoming album.........

all this unrequitted love stuff .........